Running Foxes by Gladys Paulus
The Last July
…Still, the clocks in this house get smaller
every day with acres and acres of dirt
ready to claim us. When I say,
at last, I am completely flattened,
how is it that loss
can always find
Elegy (For Marge and Nathan Sands)
…But today, even from New York, my home in Cincinnati
is still folding around me like and egg. It isn’t yet the city
in which my father will leave my mother. Or the city to
which he’ll return. Or the two weeks between that I won’t
remember. Or the two weeks after he comes home but
isn’t really home. Or the decade we’ll spend pretending it
didn’t happen. Or the years I will immediately fall asleep
each time my mother mentions her own sadness.
…Worth is not a well to be poisoned
it is not a tumbler being filled or
drank from by some audacious God,
nor a monthly allowance we get
when we are not beautiful.
Drive to the ocean. No, drive to
the Redwoods. Drive to whatever
landmark reminds you that
becoming is a slow glory and leave
your shame. It will not follow you home.
I want to have children so they can one day grow old and watch me die
…Her body is starting to give up on her.
Her mind is telling her it’s over
and her heart beats this every two beats.
Will I be there when my mother dies
or will it be something
I only see
Late Night Speech With My Brother
…It is not
too late. Your life is ahead of you,
behind you is thirty years of
death- I have seen a man of eighty
drop his parents hands and just walk the other way
SaraEve Fermin is a performance poet and epilepsy advocate from New Jersey. An East Coast heart jumping circus trains, she is the editor-in-chief of Wicked Banshee Press. Nowadays can be found volunteering at National Poetry Slam Events. She is a Women of the World Poetry Slam Competitor and her work can be found in GERM Magazine, Drunk In A Midnight Choir, Free Verse Magazine and Transcendence among others. Her second book of poetry, The View From The Top of the Ferris Wheel, will be published by Emphat!c Press in 2015. She believes in the power of foxes and self publishing.